There's rosemary – that's for remembrance

1 Comment

I Fear Oblivion.

“You say you’re not special because the world doesn’t know about you, but that’s an insult to me. I know about you. I just want to be enough for you, but I never can be. This can never be enough for you. But this is all you get. You get me, your family, and this world. This is your life.”

– Hazel Grace, The Fault in Our Stars by John Green

You can imagine my delight in discovering the coincidence that is my post of the above quote, and then finding out that today’s Daily Post challenge is about ambitions. When will I be loved? What’s my claim to fame?

I first read TFIOS about a year ago. I blitzed through it in the midst of my weekly law reading list. I remember feeling torn between liking the book because of its wit and remaining unconvinced of Augustus Waters. Other than that, I didn’t really have much of an opinion about it. Recently, I had the opportunity to revisit the story, and something truly struck a chord with me.

“I fear oblivion,” said Augustus – which in my then opinion was such a pompous thing to proclaim. It now echoes with my sentiments.

I fear oblivion. I’ll unashamedly confess that. I’ll go as far to say that a lot of us do. Many of us worry that our investment of hard work and money into this emotional roller-coaster of hopes and dreams will only veer off into the void. We want to make a name of ourselves. We want to appear on Ellen and be interviewed. We want to be on Time magazine’s list of Most Influential People 2030. I personally want to be a lawyer by day and writer/singer/actor/superhero by night.

Ambition is a wonderful thing to have. Pursuing it is highly encouraged. Yet we must remember: we are already Someone in this world. A mother, son, friend, husband…loved.